I just got home from a card making party and everyone is in bed, fast asleep. I think this is the first time in about a year that this has happened. My husband is MUCH more comfortable with baby #2 then he ever was with baby #1. I am so thankful that I can actually go out every once in a while and enjoy myself without worrying what's happening at home.

I have some good news, and some bad news. First the good news: I have worked out 3 times so far this week and plan to go to the gym tomorrow so that makes FOUR work outs in one week! WOO HOO! That's been my goal for months now and I'm so happy I've finally achieved it. I know I have many more work outs in my future, but just to get one solid week under my belt feels really good.

Now for the bad news: I haven't been doing wonderful on my diet these past 2 days. It's not that I've been horrible, it's just that I've been slacking. For instance, last night my turkey meat was still frozen so it was hard to make the burgers I was planning on making. I made sloppy joes instead. I ate mine on a bun, which I'm not supposed to eat these first 17 days. Tonight I went to this party and started to get a little hungry and ate some of the food there. None of which is on my diet. I haven't totally pigged out, but I'm not being that good either. I can think of about 5 or 6 things I've done wrong over these past 3 days and because of that, I've gained a pound.

I know in the grand scheme of things, a pound isn't much. However, I feel like I keep gaining and losing the same pound. I swear, if I were to keep track of all the weight I have lost and regained and re-lost, I'm sure I've lost well over 100 pounds this past year.

But, I also know that this is a long process. I will have good days and I will have bad days. These past couple of days have been bad, but I know the next few days will be good. Tomorrow I will sit down and plan my meals. I will go shopping and have all the foods I need in the house. I will also work out 4 times next week so if I do have something I'm not supposed to have, it won't really matter because I can burn it off.

I seem to do well when I can stay home and not go out. This past week my daughter had Spring Break from school so we were on the go most of the week. That is hard for me because I don't pack the necessary snacks and get hungry while we are out running around. I am going to start cutting up veggies and put them in baggies so I can grab them and go.

My goal for the coming week is to get down to 210. This morning I was 213. That's up a pound from my lowest (since having the baby) of 212. I can do this. IF I stick to the diet 100%, I can do this. The following week is going to be a challenge because my niece from Virginia is going to be staying with us and at the end of the week (Easter weekend) her parents will arrive and spend a few days. That tends to be an eating fest in my house.

Which leads me to another point I will explore later, but I tend to show my love for people with food. I do it with everyone and have always done it. I cook for them. I bake for them. This is how I show them I love them. WHY do I have to use food in this way? So, whenever we have company staying with us from out of town, I stock my house up with junk food. Comfort food. Anything "bad." I need to stop this behavior. I need to figure out why I do this and stop.

Tomorrow is a new day. I will not dwell on all the things I've done wrong. I'm looking forward to a day of good eating and exercise tomorrow. 210 here I come!