I wish I could say I'm at the bottom and will just work my way up. I wish I could feel really positive about going back and working out. I just feel defeated right now. Like I have wasted all that progress I had made. So, I guess I am beating myself up a little. I know how hard it was to build up that muscles and cardio endurance before. I honestly thought I'd be behind a little, but not as much as I so obviously am.
I was going to take the day off today but my daughter really wants to go play at the gym today so I'm going. I guess all I can do is take it one day at a time. We all want instant results. It just doesn't happen that way. It takes hard, hard work to get to where we want to be.
I don't really have a choice right now. I have to get back in shape. I will have a much harder and longer labor if my cardio endurance isn't what it should be. I still have a lot of time though. Sitting around feeling sorry for myself will not do a damn thing. I'm going to go to the gym today and give it 100%. I'm going to use that machine and try to stay on for 15 minutes. I'm going to push myself more and more each day and before I know it I will be back where I was and feeling great.