I can't believe Christmas is next week! How quickly time flies. I like the saying "The days are slow but the years are fast." That is so true. Especially when you have kids. Looking day to day some days just drag. There are other times when I look at my kids and can't believe they are so grown up.
This is an exciting time of year in our household. We are very excited about Santa visiting next week and the kids can't stop talking about it. I love when my 4 year old out of the blue asks about Santa. I know she's thinking about it and trying to figure out how it all works and how he comes down the chimney etc. I just love that both my kids still believe. It is such a fun time right now!
I was doing OK with my eating before going to Disney. I lost a few pounds and was feeling good because at least I lost some weight before I went. While I was at Disney one of my best friends texted me and told me she had cancer. That was difficult. It's still difficult. Without going into it to much, my world was rocked for a few weeks. I have never dealt with anything like this before. The news just kept getting worse and worse and I didn't know how to handle it. The first couple of weeks were hard. It's still hard, but I think I've processed it as much as I can and we are all dealing with it. Our families are very close and this is affecting all of us very much.
Watching someone you love go through something like this is very difficult. I have never felt as useless as I do now. There is absolutely nothing I can do to fix this. There is not much I can do to help because she has such an incredibly close and helpful family that there isn't much I can do for them. The only thing I can do is be there for her if, and when, she wants to talk and pray. It's is a very helpless feeling. I want to fix this.
I just wanted to talk about that a little because it is affecting my diet right now. For that first initial time period I didn't give a shit about what I ate. I didn't go crazy and eat everything in site, but I didn't care as much about what went into my mouth. Now I feel differently. Now I want to eat better foods and less processed foods. I want to feed my kids good foods with less chemicals. My friend eats very clean and she still got cancer.
I am slowly replacing our foods with organic foods and our sauces with sauces with less or no chemicals. For instance, when we needed syrup for our pancakes I went to Whole Foods and got a syrup that isn't full of chemicals. Have you looked at your syrup bottle's ingredients? I looked at ours and OMG, it's full of chemicals and has no real maple syrup in it! I had this information before and knew what to look for but I didn't often actually look at our bottles. Now that I am actually looking at the ingredients I am shocked at what I'm finding.
I think making these changes will help me lose weight. I'm not going to say I'm going full force right now and I'm planning on losing 10 pounds before the end of the year. I'm being realistic and know that I won't do that. My goal right now is to maintain my weight throughout the holidays and get a fresh start Jan 1. I'm going to cut calories where I can and work out when I can. If I can just do those 2 things maintaining my weight won't be hard.
I wish you a blessed Christmas and a safe New Year. By this time next year I will be writing about how proud I am of myself because I worked hard all year and am so happy that after all these years I am at my goal weight. I feel a change coming.
