Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I've been having a difficult time this past 2 weeks. I was on a vacation for almost a week. I gained 2 pounds while I was gone. I was actually proud of that because I usually do much worse when I'm not home. Then less than a week later, we had out of town company for a week. Again, I've gained weight. It's so hard for me to get back on track when I've fallen off the wagon. I just need a solid day or two of doing well and I should be good to go. My only problem is I leave again on Friday to go visit family in PA and VA. I will be gone for 11 days. While I love going on vacation, I don't love how it messes with my diet and exercise routine. I always go with good intentions. I know I will be eating out much more and I won't have total control since I'm staying at people's houses. I was raised to just eat what you are given and not complain. I know I use that as an excuse too. I feel funny asking someone to make me something "special" because I'm trying to lose weight. I will most likely hear "You're on vacation. Take a break from your diet" and I don't want to argue. If I do well on this vacation, I can still hit my goal to be under 200 by the time we leave for Disney.
I am trying to will myself to work out. I realized today that I have an all or nothing mentality. I know I should do my Jilian Michael's "Shred" DVD. I just don't want to. Since I don't want to do that, (and really should) I'm having a hard time going in my basement to work out. 45 minutes on the treadmill will still do me a lot of good. Since in my mind I should be maintaining the muscle I have built, I feel that if i don't do resistance training today, why bother do anything at all?
It's that thinking that has gotten me to this weight. In the past I've thought "I'm going on vacation on Friday and will blow the next week, so why not just blow this week and start over after I get home?" I need to realize that anything I do to move my body today will be a good thing. I don't need the motivation to work out. The motivation will come after a few successful day. I just need to do something, anything today.