Do you ever read a blog and someone is going to announce something or share something and then you don't hear from them for a while? In my experience, that means bad news. Whatever they were going to share or the results they wanted were not good and so they didn't share for a while. That's also the case with me.

I pulled out the scale and was so excited to get on it on Friday morning. My hope was 7 pounds. Of course I was unrealistically expecting more, but I decided that if I lost 7 I would be satisfied. I get on the scale and....... TWO fricken' pounds. TWO! I was shocked. I was disappointed and I was sad.

Then I thought about it. If I am REALLY honest with myself, I haven't done well for 3 weeks now. Ever since I got that flu I have kind of been off track and not giving 100%. Once I left town I was downright horrible and then I got sick, and even though I'm not eating a lot, I am eating comfort foods to "make me feel better." Yeah right.

If I had to guess, I was probably doing ok but then when I went on the trip I went totally overboard and probably gained 5 pounds back. I could have easily done that with the eating I did. After thinking about it, I should be glad I lost anything.

On a positive note, seeing that 2 didn't send me back to bed in the fetal position. It made me realize that I just need to get back on track. I have NOT gone back to my old habits because I was starving yesterday while out running errands and I didn't go through McDonalds drive thru and get a double cheeseburger. I will admit, I was in line and would probably have gotten one if there wasn't 3 cars ahead of me taking forever. I just thought about it and do not want to go back to that place where I was eating alone, in my car while driving so nobody knew what I was doing.  For some reason, that was the line I wouldn't cross so I drove home and made healthy food.

I think somewhere in my mind I knew it couldn't be that good because any other time this would have sent me into an eating frenzy. I would just give up "until Monday" and start again. I haven't done that this time. I'm just making better choices and on Monday I will go back to the gym. I'm still coughing a lot so 2 more days should be enough where I can work out without coughing my head off.

I still do feel a little sad that I haven't made more progress. What I don't understand is why my clothes are getting baggy. 2 pounds won't do that. I just can't dwell on it. I have to move forward and continue to do my best. I need to stop doing this half way and just go for it to lose this weight once and for all.

Well I know that you are waiting to hear how I did. I am too. I have not gotten on the scale yet. I plan to weigh in on Friday morning.

I went to see my friend in PA and had kind of a crappy weekend. I got her meet her new boyfriend and I really didn't like him at all. He pretty much ignored me that first time I met him and that was just unacceptable to me. My friend knows that what he did was rude and really didn't have an explanation to explain his behavior. So that put a damper on our weekend. The second night he came over he was sick. I have no idea why he came over so sick, especially since I was there from out of town, but he did. So, my friend got sick and I did too. Really sick. I am still sick today. My eating has been way off and my exercise is non existent. I can't really breath so I just thought I'd give myself a few days before I weigh in.

Before I got sick my eating was horrible. After all my planning that I was going to eat healthy while there it all went down the tubes once I arrived. My friend said that her boyfriend decided he was going to take the weekend off of his diet so she was too which pretty much meant I would too. I really can't believe I didn't say "No, I've planned this and I'm going to do well" I am disappointed in myself that I did that, but I did and there's nothing I can do about it now.

I will post on Friday after I weigh in. I'm hoping that the non eating since I'm sick will out weigh the over eating over the weekend so I will still show a decent loss. I really doubt I will be able to work out this week because my chest is so heavy and I am having a hard time breathing without coughing my head off.

My friend did tell me that my face looked thinner when she saw me so that made me feel good. Today I am back on track with my eating. I'm not eating much, but my breakfast was a 6 point meal and I haven't eaten since then. I just hope I'm not disappointed when I see that number on the scale. I feel like I've put in the work to have a decent number, but we'll see I guess.