Well, things could be better but they could be worse. I started this year with a goal of losing one pound a week. Sounds like a no brainer huh? Well, not exactly. I haven't gained anything, but I haven't lost a lot either. I'm kind of just maintaining but I'm getting out what I'm putting in which is basically nothing.

I could give a bunch of excuses as to why this has happened, but it really comes down to time and priorities. I haven't made it a priority and my time has been taken up by other things. I know this and I accept this but that doesn't mean I'm going to continue on like this.

I'm not really a "religious" person but I have found a Church that is non denominational and uses humor and common sense to explain the Bible. Last week there was a talk about "worshiping false Gods." I never knew it, but I am guilty of this. My "false God" is the scale. I wake up and the firs thing I want to do is get on the scale. Then, depending on the number I see, I decide my mood for the day. I'm done. I'm sick of doing that and I shouldn't let a damn number decide anything. So I came up with a new plan.

Starting Wednesday (beginning of Lent) I am not going to get on my scale for 40 days. I am also going to start Weight Watchers. Honestly, after all these years (not every year since I've been a kid) of giving up things, I think this is going to be the hardest. I'm not going to be getting that validation from the scale  and that is going to be hard.

I know Weight Watchers, and I've been successful doing the WW program. I think I'm just going to do the online program because I have never really found accountability going to the meetings. I'm not really an outgoing person so I just sit there, listen and leave. I've never really found a support group at the meetings so I'm going to try it this way. One of my BFF's has just started the program so we will do it together, but she has all of 15 pounds to lose. I have much more than that to lose.

I'm excited to start this. There are a few reasons I'm waiting until Wednesday. One thing, it's symbolic of the whole Lent thing. Instead of getting on the scale I'm going to start my day reading a Bible verse or daily devotion or something along those lines. I'm going to see how my days go doing this instead of getting on the scale. Also, my daughter turns 7 this weekend and we have a big party as well as other dinners to celebrate. While I'm not planning on going crazy, I'm also realistic and know that it's not the best time to start something new. I'd like to say I'm going to be strong and can resist all the food that will be before me, but that's not gonna happen.  I will make healthy choices when I can, but I will eat cake.

I will try to update once a week, although I won't reporting numbers of pounds lost. Maybe I will start looking for other "NSV's" (non scale victories) I can report. I'm looking forward to something new that doesn't involve numbers. I'm also not saying I will never get on the scale. Lent only goes until Easter so  I will be weighing in after that. I'm just hoping this will teach me it's not ALL about the numbers and more about how I feel.