Biggest Loser is starting tonight and I can't wait! That show is always so motivating for me. These people who weigh 300+ pounds are working out 6-7 hours a day! I always tell myself that if they can do it at 300 lbs, I can certainly do 45 mins a day at 214 pounds. Yes, 214. I've lost a few since my last post.

I had a birthday last weekend. I did something last night that I was really proud of. My husband and daughter made me a cake. It was my favorite kind of cake and I made the frosting. YUM-ME! So I had a piece on my birthday and the day after. Yesterday, I was thinking about that cake all day long. Seriously, if I were a heroine addict, that would be my brand. I was shocked at how much that stupid cake took up my thoughts. I knew I was going to have a piece for dessert. I knew the scale was up yesterday morning. I basically thought "There's nothing I can do about it until that cake is gone" It was light a light bulb went off in my head. I said to myself "I'm going to throw it in the garbage" OMG, what a concept! THROW IT OUT! Once I made the decision to do it, I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Seriously, how pathetic is that? I threw it in the garbage and felt so proud of myself. Of course, the scale didn't move at all this morning. I thought the Universe should have deducted a pound because of my will power. No such luck.

I also remembered that sometimes it can take a day or two of eating badly for it to show on the scale. How could I have forgotten that? I think I got a little cocky because when I woke up on my birthday I was 213 pounds. I did well but could have done better. I went to a movie and had a squirt of the "butter topping." I went to Outback and had a salad, steak and sweet potato fries (AWESOME) which I knew wasn't good. And of course, the dreaded cake. But, I keep telling myself that I could have done so much worse. I could have blown the whole weekend because of my birthday. I didn't. I worked out on Sunday and today. I'm back on track.

I leave for vacation to Disney World next Monday. I am terrified. We are taking advantage of the Free Dining Plan. The food there is awesome. It's very difficult for me to say no to fattening foods when they are foods I can only get when I'm down there. I will do my best. That's all I can do. I don't see myself working out because there is no gym at our resort and my husband and daughter will be with me. It's kind of hard to do sit ups and push ups in the room if they are there with me. I feel stupid doing that in front of them, well, my husband at least. My daughter cheers me on when I work out, which I love.

I will do my best and hope for the best. That's all I can do.