Still getting by

Last week was a tough week. I started to get on a roll as far as my carb cycling and exercising. I think I got in 4 work outs last week. Carb cycling is really easy and I'm not doing it 100% but I am mindful of the carbs I eat. I cut down wherever I can and I'm trying new recipes, which is a big deal for me.

But, then Wednesday came and we got some pretty bad news. My daughter who is 8 is best friends with another 8 year old girl that lives a few houses away. Her dad passed away last Wednesday. Talk about being shocked! He got into a motorcycle accident and was hurt pretty badly. They took him off life support on Wednesday evening. This is the second husband this poor mother has lost. This was my daughter's friends step dad. Her biological dad was murdered when she was one. I know, it's all confusing and I don't want to ever use names on my blog, so it's hard to explain, but the whole situation is devastating. He left behind 3 year old twin girls. My heart was broken for these people. I do know them both and I am friendly with them but I'm not friends with them. I still felt awful last week. Just trying to comprehend how this could have happened.

I did not turn to food though. I think I was so sad I just didn't want to eat. But, my birthday was on Friday. My wonderful co-workers got me a death by chocolate cake and took me out to lunch to my favorite Italian restaurant. On my actual birthday my husband took me out to eat at another Italian place and got me an Oreo Ice Cream cake. Needless to say, I wasn't being healthy on those few days.

But, I am happy to report that this morning I worked out for an hour on my treadmill and I'm having a great day eating. Since both my kids are sick I will not have to go to work this week so I should be able to work out everyday and eat healthy. I'm on my way to my goal to lose 20 before leaving for our trip. I am shocked that I didn't gain anything from my weekend of eating.

I am also proud of myself because there was not one time when I thought "Oh, I'll just start over on Monday." I made healthy choices when I could and didn't beat myself up for the unhealthy choices I made. I told myself that it was my birthday and I could enjoy myself as long as I got back on track the next day. I am really optimistic that I am going to lose some serious weight this week. I put up some pictures of Disney World on the wall of my work out area to remind myself that I'm doing this so I can walk around and not be in pain everyday. For the first time in a long time I feel like I WILL do this and I will succeed without a doubt. It feels good to have confidence in myself again.