I have been doing great! I am SO happy to say that I've been sticking to my diet and I've also been working out at home. I drop my daughter off at school, put the baby down for a nap and head to my basement where my treadmill it. It's so nice having a new one that works so well and I actually look forward to using it. Right now I am having Jillian Michaels train me with the ifit so I think I work harder than I would on my own.

I realized the other day that I have lost 20 pounds since Jan 1. I guess I didn't know I weighed as much as I did at the beginning of the year. I found the paper I used to keep track of it. Here we are half way through the year and I am not quite where I thought I would be, but come on? How can I be unhappy at losing 20 pounds? I'm not unhappy at all, as a matter of fact I am ecstatic.

I feel so much better now than I did even a month ago. I have more energy, usually sleep better etc. I was talking to a friend about this and I don't understand why this is so hard. I feel SO good when I am being good. What makes me stop being good? Right now when I think about eating fatty or unhealthy foods it just doesn't appeal to me at all. I know I have been here before though and I have slipped back into my old ways. I don't know what's different this time, but I just hope it stays with me.

I have made a new deal with my husband. We are going to Disney World in September. I'd like to have lost 30 pounds by that time. (When we made this deal that was 2 pounds a week which is totally doable) He will give me $10 for each pound lost and if I do hit the 30 pounds I get an additional $100 for spending money. Ok, I know it's all "our money" so it technically doesn't mean much, but it's the challenge. Usually when we go on vacation I spend our money on the kids. I needed some kind of goal and I needed some kind of reward. So far this seems to be working. I have lost 6 pounds which means I get $60 no matter what at this point. If you've ever been to Disney, $60 will buy you a sweatshirt. I am a little bit behind with my 2 pounds a week but my niece has been here since last week so it's a bit harder to maintain a healthy diet. I'll just have to make it up once she's gone.