All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go!! I'm SO EXCITED!

When I woke up this morning I thought "What's better? Waking up and knowing Santa has come or knowing that in a few hours you will be on a plane to Disney World?" I'm still trying to figure out the answer!

I weighed myself this morning and my official goal for this trip is not to gain 5 lbs like last time. I will be happy with anything under 5. I know I will do a lot of walking although it probably won't be at a fast pace. I'm not even taking work out clothes because I know that won't happen. My only hope to not gain weight is what I eat and I'm going in with a good attitude.

Have a great week and I'll post when I get back!

I worked out once this week. I could sit here and beat myself up for not doing more, but I'm not gonna do that. One is better than none and I have been extremely busy. I have been eating really healthy so at least I'm not eating badly and not working out. I'm ok with this.

I'm reading one of those touchy feeley books about how diets don't work and we just need to be nice to ourselves. While I do agree with some of it, I don't know if just being nice to myself will help me all that much. But, thinking about it, I do have a lot of negative chatter in my head. Beating myself up and telling myself I'm not good enough and I'm not doing enough certainly doesn't help me. From now on I'm just going to accept what I do and do the best I can.

I had my OB appt yesterday. I am SO HAPPY to report that I only gained ONE pound over this past month. 10 total for my first trimester, but only one in this past month. I asked my doctor about giving me a diet and she did. It's a 2000 calorie diet that is basically low carb. I am going to start it when I get back from Disney. I am not even going to think about it before then. I know I'm not going to follow a diet while I'm gone so I'm just going to have a good time and not go too crazy with my eating. At least I will be walking everyday.

I am a third done with this pregnancy and for the first time I know I will be able to get through this without gaining a ton of weight. I feel so good about that realization. I will eat enough to nourish me and my baby but I won't fall into the whole "Eating for two" myth. The baby is about 3" long by now. There is no way a fetus that small can need as much nourishment as a person. Actually, it's only about an extra 200 calories a day. I can do that. I can do this. OMG, I'm going to be a mom again! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!

The first picture shows the hand up by the face (the white blob just floating there) The second picture is the "alien baby" photo. My daughter looked the same way. Don't know if you can see it on your computer, but you can actually see the brain above the eyes. Incredible! So, do you think it's a boy or a girl? LOL

I'm sitting on the couch last night, watching tv like I normally do and suddenly it hit me- OMG, I have not felt nausea at all today! Not one little tiny bit. I almost feel "normal!" You don't know how happy this has made me. About a month ago the nausea got much better, but every night I could still feel it. Something was off and I just didn't feel good. NOT ANYMORE! YIPPEEEE!!!!!

Tonight for dinner I made my beloved stir fry. I haven't had that, and actually enjoyed it for such a long time. I'm starting to think about eating much healthier. Eating to fuel my body instead of trying to make myself feel better when feeling so sick.

I've also been extremely tired. I just chalked it up to being pregnant. However, I realized that maybe my sleep apnea has returned. I lost over 30 lbs and didn't have sleep apnea anymore. I was able to stop using my CPAP machine. But, since I've gained almost 10 lbs, maybe I'm having trouble breathing at night again. I've also been waking up with horrible headaches, which again, I've chalked up to being pregnant. Now I am starting to realize that I need to wear the machine again. I've tried the last few nights but I get up at night and take it off. If I could just get a whole night under my belt I could determine if it's the sleep apnea or pregnancy. I'll keep trying until I get a full night with the machine on.

As far as my mojo, I think it's coming back tomorrow. My daughter is going back to school and I'm heading to the gym. I should be able to get 4 days in this week. I just need to move again. I feel so crappy not doing anything. I'm sore and just feel all around bad. Emotionally and physically.

I still have not hooked up my scanner. I have to clear off my desk and figure out how to hook it up. I will do it this week. I am dying to post the pics of the baby. It is just amazing how much you can see even though he or she is only 12 weeks old. It truly is a miracle.

I've been waiting to post because I need to hook up my scanner to post the picture of my ultrasound I got on Tuesday. I realized that that may not happen this week so I'm going to post anyway.

I got my ultrasound and everything looked fine to me. I was so strange to see the baby moving around inside of me and not feel a thing. The baby is 6 mm from head to rump but has all of it's little body parts. He/she even held it's hand up as if it say "Hi mom" What an awesome experience! It makes me feel more excited now. Up until this point I have just felt sick, but now that I see that little baby I see what I'm doing all this for.

Now for the bad news. I realized last night that I lost my mojo. It's gone and I'm afraid I won't be able to find it again. For so long I was going to the gym and enjoying it. I would work out hard and push my body and really started loving it.

I haven't gone to the gym in over 2 weeks and have zero desire to start. At this point, I have to force myself like I did last time. I have to just go and fake it until I make it. It worked before and it will work again. However, we are going to Disney soon so I don't want to take my daughter to the daycare. I don't want her to get sick for our vacation.

So, not only do I have to force myself to work out, I have to force myself to work out in my basement. Ugh. I guess my best option is to work out while my daughter is in school. That way I can do it with no distractions and interruptions. I just feel like I am looking up this huge mountain, knowing I have to climb up it and no desire to do so. I hate feeling like this. I wish I would have never stopped but felt so bad physically I just couldn't do it. I know I can do this, I just don't want to.

I have been feeling GREAT this whole week. Almost no nausea and the weather has been beautiful. According to my car, we hit 80 today! Can life get any better?

I have not been to the gym. My daughter has a nasty cough and I know they do not want her in the daycare. She is on antibiotics for a sinus infection. I hope to be back next week. My niece will be staying with me for the whole week so she can babysit while I go to the gym.

This weekend is going to be a struggle as far as my eating goes. I'm making a big Easter dinner. I'm making ham, macaroni and cheese, twice baked potato bake thing, roll and corn. I'm also making this dessert that is TO DIE FOR! It's a Paula Dean recipe so that tells you that it is anything but healthy. My SIL and BIL arrive from VA tomorrow and that is why I'm making so much food. Normally we would go out to eat but with the family being here it just made sense to make a big dinner. I love cooking and like to take these opportunities to go all out.

I hope everyone has a safe and healthy Easter weekend! Don't eat too much and hopefully I will be back next week reporting on my great workouts and how much my diet has improved!

I'm back.. again. This is day #2 of feeling semi normal. Almost no nausea. I am cautiously optimistic that it is gone. Whew... Could it be? I will be at week #12 next week so it is entirely possible that it is gone for good.

This makes me feel like I am ready to go back to Weight Watchers. Not the meetings because they do not let pregnant women go on the plan, but just following it in general on my own. I will make sure I have an extra glass of FF milk to get those extra calories I need. If I'm hungry, I will eat. I won't be doing anything drastic, but I would like to slow down my weight gain. I'm up another half a pound, making it a 6 pound gain in about 9 weeks? Not horrible, but it could be better.

Yesterday my husband came up to me and patted my stomach and said "Boy, it's really starting to stick out isn't it?" I didn't know whether to hit him or laugh. I laughed. I've been feeling it. My pants are getting tighter and I feel like my stomach looks bloated all the time. Another reason I want to at least feel like I'm trying to be healthy.

I've been concerned lately about eating processed foods. I've been watching Jamie Oliver's "Food Revolution" and boy has it opened my eyes. My daughter eats terribly and I am the one feeding her. Mostly it is because she never wants to eat so when she does, I give her what she wants. (I'm not talking about candy here, I'm talking about things like chicken nuggets) I'm going to start finding recipes that use fresh, whole foods. That means no more WW frozen meals for me which really kept me on plan before. I'm going to have to realize that this is going to take more time and effort to plan my meals, but so worth it.

I've been reading the book Dr Oz wrote about pregnancy and he says there is more and more research that says what you eat when the baby is inside of you really sets it up for life. Eating pizza and chinese food isn't going to be doing the baby any favors. I need to eat more fresh veggies and fruits. I'm starting this week. I'm feeling good and now is as good as time as any.